felmel

felmel @ 2007-05-19T15:41:00

2007-05-19T20:40:40Z

i lost another battle.

felmel @ 2007-04-17T15:51:00

2007-04-17T20:51:00Z

i wish i was older.

then my problems might be easier to solve...

felmel @ 2007-04-10T09:11:00

2007-04-10T14:12:43Z

i will never, ever, ever understand why guys do what they do.
so i might end up getting hurt,
i might end up crying,
once again.

i really really don't want this to happen.
how much worse could this get??

oh yeah, his birthday is on friday.

felmel @ 2007-04-07T21:26:00

2007-04-08T02:26:22Z

there are so many ways in which i wish i was different.

felmel @ 2007-03-23T16:46:00

2007-03-23T21:47:52Z

when i'm with you
the world moves by
as if
we were the only ones alive.

♥

.

2007-03-20T00:02:32Z

i haven't felt this good in ages.
my stomach is full of butterflies
at times i feel short of breath.
my mind is wandering
thinking of you.

last night=

2007-03-03T18:31:09Z

pure enjoyment.
seriously.
i don't know if i've had that much fun in the last month.
i LOVE LOVE LOVE my friends.
list?haha
+andrew
+chloe
+adam hart
+brandon
+nick
+maria
+nate the destroyer!
+jon this down
+chad
+kyle
+matt

seriously.... i could go on.
<3lots of loooove

:]

2007-02-10T06:37:39Z

matt a. is my hero.

i don't deserve friends this good.

they say

2007-02-07T02:59:00Z

love makes the world go round.
but im starting to think its the hate.

fab.

2007-02-04T20:38:34Z

my friends decide to ditch me to go to someone else's superbowl party.
am i like hated or something?

i guess its like that.

this is.

2007-01-28T18:39:32Z

commitment is what forms a promise into reality.

it is the words that speak boldly of your intentions,

and the actions which speak louder than the words.

it is making the time when there is none.

coming through time, after time, after time.

commitment is what character is made of;

the power to change the face of things.

it is the daily triumph of integrity over skepticism.

it is what you have not.

i think that maybe

2007-01-24T23:48:56Z

just maybe...
im really gonna be ok.

new experiences, even shitty ones,
always seem to teach me some kinda of lesson.

durrrr.

2007-01-19T01:20:35Z

i want to give up so bad.
i want to let it go.
but its going to be too hard.

i'm so hesitant on giving second chances.

god i hate boys.

JFAC and the acacia strain

2007-01-14T03:50:39Z

how unlucky can one little girl get?
someone sliced my eye in the pit diring the last song from job for a cowboy, when it was wide open. its still blurry from that eye.
and then, stupid me decides to go back in the pit for acacia strain.

haha. BAD idea.
cause then, not even like 10 minutes later, i get puched in the jaw first on by some thinks-hes-all-that asain. im not racist but cmon.
so now my vision is blurry and i can only open my mouth to about an inch, and i cant chew food.
so we'll see how long this lasts.

and to top it all of someone who i was hoping would be at the show wasn't.
and he kinda let me down.

today was the only day that i've ever cried in the pit.
what a CRAPPY night.

today.

2007-01-06T22:41:51Z

might have been the best day out of this new year so far.
thank you, and you know who you are.

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2007-01-05T04:08:17Z

im overwhelmed with so many feelings...that i dont even know what to feel anymore.

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2006-12-30T19:30:42Z

after the burial , with dead hands rising, everest at the triple rock today.
yes yes and triple yes.

christmas...joy?

2006-12-26T04:57:17Z

so i guess i should tell you guys about all the awesome stuff i got this year...
or maybe not so much?
a crapload of giftcards, stuff for my car, candy, some snowboarding gear andddd thats pretty much it.
oh and guitar hero II and pirates 2 on dvd.
sweet life, i suppose.
but it kind of sucks that the one thing i really wanted was a new phone, and i didnt get it.
so now i have to decide which i want more,
new guitar or a phone?

and i feel kind of sick.
i have a cough, and even though i dont cough that much, when i do, it hurts a hella lot.

and im also bumming out about boy situations.
is anything ever going to happen?
with anyone, ever?
i swear, all these people "supposedly" like me,
but NOTHINg ever friggen happens.
and its not the worst thing in the world,
but it does kinda suck just a little bit.
i was hoping i could have someone to cuddle with this winter.
and i guess im still looking.

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2006-12-23T08:34:27Z

i want things to be different. fat chance thats gonna happen.

new year.

2006-12-21T04:21:21Z

1) Was 2006 a good year for you?
yeah, i guess so.

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
mmm... too many to pick just one?

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
losing my best friend.

4) Where were you when 2006 began?
hannah's house

5) Who were you with?
haha.. i don't remember THAT many names.

6) Where will you be when 2006 ends?
no ideaaa

7) Who will you be with when 2006 ends?
my friends. and whoever else wants to join in on the party.

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2006?
dont even remember what it was.

9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2007?
not really.

10) Did you fall in love in 2006?
i dont think so..

11) If yes, with who?
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12) If yes, do they know?
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13) Are you still in love with them?
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14) You regret it?
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15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2006?
i wouldn't call it that at all.

16) Did you make any new friends in 2006?
haha. SO many. and i love all of them.

17) Who are your favorite new friends?
ryan, adam, adam, matt, brandan, mark, ... i could go on.

18) What was your favorite month of 2006?
july. ehhhh.

19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2006?
nope.

20) How many different states did you travel to in 2006?
a couple.. dont remember.

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2006?
yeah, i did.

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
my grandma, she passed away in sept.

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2006?
BORAT

24) What was your favorite song from 2006?
umm... do i really have to pick one?

25) What was your favorite album from 2006?
hmmmm. ?

26) How many concerts did you see in 2006?
more than my fingers and toes.

27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2006?
they were all amazinggggg

28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2006?
no way jose!

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2006?
ick.

30) How many people did you sleep with in 2006?
sleep as in sleepover? hahahaha lots then.

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
yess'mmm

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2006?
dunno.

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2006?
i dont think so.

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2006?
maybe a little.

36) How much money did you spend in 2006?
whoa man i dont even wanna think about that.

37) What was your proudest moment of 2006?
errrr...

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2006?
can't pick just one.

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2006 and change something, what would it be?
no comment.

40) What are your plans for 2007?
to get a life. and some new friends.

not really a subject.

2006-12-21T04:03:36Z

i'm in a good mood right now.
some people are good at making others smile, if you know what i mean.

man oh man

2006-12-19T22:02:01Z

i love my friends to death.
and i would quite literally die for them.

i love you guys.
=)

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2006-12-19T04:48:15Z

my voice has been gone for over a week.
and its getting better, but i still have the squeakys.

erggggg.

and one more thing.
guys can sure be confusing as hell.
i'm not too sure what i want,
but could i maybe have a sign or something to push me forward??
please??

track 06

2006-12-18T22:56:48Z

only because andrew would KILL me.
hahahaha.

last night.

2006-12-16T00:36:07Z

yesterday was so much fun, unbelievably fun.
me, maria, and her roommates all went to the holidazzle parade in downtown minneapolis.
not the funnest thing ever, but we had such a good time.
jenny and her microphone... i so had to get one.
adam was supposed to meet up with me there but he ended up working late...
so at around 8 me and maria went to MOA, met up with him, and he drove us to pizza luce's.
hahaha i love his car.
it was kinda awkward being with a group of people i dont really know,
i even suprised myeslf with how quiet i was.
thennn he had to drive me and maria back to my car so i could get home.
cause you know, it was still a weeknight and all.
and even though i didnt get home till like 11:15,
it was all good.
and even though i hate saying goodbye,
i LOVE getting good hugs.
always, always a good thing.

thanks to everyone who made last night a frikken blast.
i love you all mucho.